So its been like forever since i've used this...it could be because i only use myspace now>> http://www.myspace.com/eclectic_soul  check it out if you'd like. i did start that Latinos & Latinas represent & i'm proud to see over 4,000 members...damn i'm good...in a lame way obviously!

Rock on & peace out everyone!

don't really go on here nemore...you can reach me @ myspace (add me as a friend or just send me a message if u wish!) hope everyone is doing well...much LuV <3 <3 Melody

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So my life pretty much consists of class, work, doing homework, sleeping (which isn't often), and going out w/friends(which is only fri.).  I look so forward to Fridays...Hard Rock Cafe! $5 Pitchers & Rubba Slippas!!! Except I realized that I haven't seen many pple in actual Rubba Slippas...everyones dressed up & I like the atmosphere and the free drinks!  Last Fri. was the shits...Sarah, you made it sOoOo much more fun!

So the only thing left to do for my growing up and being independent is...get an apartment.  Need one ASAP...then i can go home whenever I like and not have a stupid loud-ass alarm go off that brings cops.

"You can dress me up in diamonds * You can dress me up in dirt * You can throw me like  a line-man * I like it better when it hurts * Oh i have waited here for you * I have waited...you make me wanna LALA * In the kitchen on the floor * I'll be your french maid, when i'll meet you at the door * I'm like an alley cat * Drink the milk up, I want more  * You make me wanna, you make me wanna SCREAM"  Interpret as you wish...I <3 this song as well as:

"There’s always that one person that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause you’re blinded from the start
Know that you’re that one for me it’s clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby (you will always be my boo)

I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock

Do you remember girl I was the one that gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screamin your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger you were mine (my boo)
Now another brother's taken over but it’s still in you’re eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it’s all right (my boo)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo"

Currently Watching Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle By John Cho, Kal Penn see related

So i haven't written here for a while and i jus updated...theres a few things to catch up on.

*I now work @ macy's THISIT part time...apparantely i get more than some of the pple that have worked there quite a bit longer than me; this didn't go over too well w/some of them and they're very bitter and snotty towards me.  I've already discovered the drama that goes on in there and there for a vow to jus do my work and not get involved because i've learned that much from my previous employment.  this past friday was my first pay day...it was nice to cash a pay check, something i haven't done in over 3 months!

*my new car, a mazda 626 yr '02, has been officially named...buster the thruster...the funky HON might be up for sale  it was a good car even when the door couldn't open from the inside and i had to push the window up and down!

*school will be starting soon...i'll be even busier; being busy is good cus i dont feel lazy, but then its bad cus it gets me tired!

With all this going on in my life, there still seems to be something (actually someone) missing.  While i'm having fun going clubbing, it makes me sad that i dont have neone to go home to.  Then the guy that i do think i have something going on w/is confusing the hell outta me...it sux.  the good thing is i dont sit around and mope about it (partially cus i dont have the time to), i just live my life day by day hoping for that right one to come along.

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So...someone has come along but there's of course complications to it...

The confusion of  what I am to someone is breaking my heart.  I wish there was a way to ask straight out w/out risking him knowing how much I care for him.  The eyes are the windows to your soul/heart...but if i try and look into his eyes, won't he see my heart?  Damn his ex who broke his heart and still has a grasp on it leaving him unable to trust someone new and move on.  Damn him for his sweet words and gestures.  Just as I bring my self back down from the high of anticipation, he builds it back up making me wonder whether I mean more to him than just a good friend.  He claims that he loves to be around me because I'm a great person and he just can't describe what "it" is about me.  I HATE not knowing.

MACY'S...they finally called and i got myself a job! Its only for on call right now, but they said that a position would be opening up soon in the "This Is It" section.  Finally, I got a good job that i know i'll like!

I had some good times~good times camping last night! It became very interesting when it started pouring and we had no tent...luckily jenn's bf came and saved the day!!! He brought this tent that fit all 7 of us! I had such a blast!